Resolution

I still am having a difficult time determining my vision for my primary blog. I don't want to put every single thing up there, but I do want to document the various things that I have been working on.

I don't even think that I did a New Year's post, which is pretty sad.

Two years ago, right before the new year, I named the coming year. And it seemed like one of those things you would read in a self-help book. The year became what I declared it. I was thinking about that a few weeks ago and I silently declared 2009 the year of "this body." This body, of course, is my body.

Part of this is my navel-gazing obsession with the fact that I am going to turn thirty this year. The other part of it is a realization that I am the only person responsible of taking care of myself, and that I am the only person who would take care of me. There are some ways that I could be doing better in that area and I have chosen to focus on the physical.

I started on the very traditional start day of January 1 and have been pretty good about working on this. I have decided that I would like to document the process as well. A better planner would have made a big deal of taking a before picture so that on January 1, 2010, I could see what I was able to accomplish this year. However, one of the things that I have decided is that what I'm not after are rigid, strict rules. That doesn't work well for me. Discipline, okay. Craziness, not okay.

This is not the only area where I am trying to improve. I want to take more deliberate actions as a parent and focus on spending quality time with my son and giving him memorable experiences. I'm also itching to spend more time writing. I have strayed away from putting time in at the computer, and need to get back to it. I found notes from my current novel that are a few years old. I know how these things get done. You sit down and you push through it. I used to do a number of creative things, writing, drawing, knitting, making things, but I have really gotten away from it. I am not happy with that.

Anyway, a burst of spontaneity led me back to this blog and, for now, I'm rolling with it.